Hot like radiation

1 Oct

I’ve got the song with the chorus line ‘hot like radiation’ by Gavin DeGraw on the iPod.  It’s not quite the same:-)

Submitting to this treatment everyday has challenged me (and those around me) in more ways than I can find the words to describe.

Dragging myself to the ‘radiation bunker/chamber’ every day is taking its toll.  I’ve managed to make myself physically ill every single day – despite counting down each day as a step closer to finishing this.

I’m so very tired.

I’ll spare you the detail of every day.  But here is the ‘mark up’ – tumour site, mid-line, ‘field’, the sexy gown I wear every day, some of the impact……

Psychologically – in some ways this is far more difficult than chemo.  There’s an algorithm to that.  This – ????

My mind is struggling.  My body is beyond exhaustion, my skin – so fragile – it’s burnt, blistering, itchy, hot, tender….red raw…..

The side effects?  Well, the main ones – the burn and fatigue has increased.

Fingers crossed things will settle soon…….

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