Hanging…..

12 Dec

Appointment with my Medical Oncologist.  As I walk into the consult room, he already has films up on the light-box and a printed report on his desk.

I’ve come on my own.

We speak about the difficulties/problems since finishing Chemo.  He asks about how I’m going with the bone pain, hot flushes, Tamoxifen……..?

I look left to the films.  Mental note – I feel like I’m hanging off a cliff….at the mercy of this disease.

There’s ‘something suspicious’ he tells me, a ‘grey mass’ in the centre of my sternum – my chest.

‘We can monitor’ he says. ‘Unless Danny has any other ideas………..?’

I have NO idea how I’m supposed to get through to April knowing there’s something suspicious.

So glad to be seeing Daniel tomorrow.  Time to do some thinking and homework.

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